Posted by Emma from VIC on 18/07/2012
I gave birth to my first child last year (she is now 15months), and am currently pregnant with my second - due in Sep. My first pregnancy was awful - I was nauseated throughout the whole pregnancy, however the birth went well. I believe I have depression, as I am constantly arguing with my partner and have no motivation to do anything. I am always crying and upset, and can't see the positive side to anything. It is very debilitating and is affecting every aspect of my life. My little girl is amazing, however I do struggle with the huge responsibility motherhood has bestowed upon me. I feel huge resentment towards my partner due to my belief that he has it easy. I have chosen to be a stay at home mum, however I miss the social aspect of working and the adult conversation. I can't seem to communicate this to my partner without it ending in an argument. I guess all I am looking for is a little reassurance and recognition that I am doing a good job. I know I would benefit from the support of anti-depressant medication, however given that I am pregnant again, I don't want to risk taking anything that may harm/adversely affect my unborn baby. Motherhood is a thankless job, and I totally understand how depression can occur. Hopefully I will see some light at the end of the tunnel soon - until then, I guess I will have to take each day as it comes.