I want to share my story to encourage others going through the monster of post natal depression and anxiety to reach out- youre not alone! My depression and anxiety snuck up on me 4 months after my birth. The trigger for me was seeing my underweight and thinking it was all my fault because I couldn't breastfeed. I guess 2-3 highly stressful months of trying to feed my baby and the overwhelming responsibility i now had caused an explosion in my mind. What followed was the most frightening time I have ever experienced-repetitive thoughts that I may lose control and harm my baby or myself-I couldn't eat, play with baby-spiralled into deep depression. I couldn't be alone with my baby as I was so scared. The hardest thing was telling my husband and physiologist about the thoughts-I truly thought I was going insane! With the help of medication and counselling sessions I improved dramatically but would say I'm currently still recovering. I'm just so thankful that I sought help immediately. It's the hardest thing sharing what you're going through but looking after yourself and your family is the most important!! Just speak up!